Diam Lah

I'm chatting more with my friends then with someone I would like to
There's just always something that comes up and never me
I guess this trip is a real good test and it does show just what people can and cant do for you
It does show how much your valued, your worth spending time with

Initially when I first came and a certain friend of mine knew I was miserable stayed online
and had her lunch in front of the comp and just chatted with me for hours
The chat was really dull and she was basically asking me about how I spend my time here
You just know its not so much of the chat but people just 'hanging out' with you
Spending some time with you, this is kindness

It does show, it really does. Maybe this was the purpose of the trip

Maybe I bugged people too much. Well they always hang it by their mouth saying hey lets bring her out here, lets bring her there. Then when the email was sent out. Nobody replies

I would then ask each one individually, those whom I thought I heard them rally on saying yeah let me know when you guys plan on doing so. And then they say they never planned for Disneyland.

Another dude initially was okay with the idea of heading out to Vegas but he said he doesnt gamble so he would just walk around. Then I said I wont gamble too so I can walk around with you. Couple of weeks later, he said his parents were coming to town and he needs to save money. He said he never wanted to go Vegas

So I was asking that Disney fella about other scheduled trips upcoming and just threw in a 'u sure u dont wanna go Disney with us =( '

And the reply I got was, "Asking me to go Disneyland is like asking you to go on the Duck-tour to see the Merlion. Dont get me wrong you will have fun but everybody who comes here ALWAYS wants to go Disneyland" Dont have to say until like that right? This is like the ultimatum asking you to bug off.

Yeah and everytime someone randomly says to bring me somewhere, you will make some noise and say let you know when.

Somemore keep asking me when I will play pool with her. Ask me for what. You plan the day and take charge la. Your the one with heaps of commitment, I only have my tv in the hotel room. So I say why dont you decide then she says okay maybe towards end of week , we'll talk again mid-week. No more news and when it was nearing end of week, she sends out a mail saying she's got this event with her friends and asked if anyone's interested to go. Hello, what happened to pool?

Today have the cheek in loudly in front of everyone say she waiting for me to schedule a time for her. She wanted to make it sound like Im quite prissy and never got to hanging out with her. Please lor, I shoot her back saying ya we were deciding on the day then u say we'll talk again mid-week and it never happened. Then she was all innocent like well I was waiting for you to get back to me (ya right, u say talk mid-week becomes waiting for me) then I say you had your event so I guess you didnt plan for pool. By now everybody was laughing already that I retorted her, she wanted to say something back again but it was buried in laughters. I think people here like to see 'action' like woah! she spoke up and shoot this back wahaha!

And angmohs always like to talk back. They will die if you say your stuff and they never get to say their last piece. They cannot hold their tongue. Die die must say something.

So, I've got enough of people just sprinkling their saliva and mia when it comes to action.
Seriously, its become quite amusing. Someone wants to organise something, sends out an email and you only hear crickets. Or one by one they will reply with "sorry my cat got pregnant I need to stay in take her pulse"

Sometimes I cant help but just feel like telling them..."Diam la"

P.S. Ive gotten by so far without you. It is a waste, really a waste. It could have been a very good opportunity to prove something more. I really thought it was worth it.