Suay man...

Tried to do some laundry and the machine wouldn't go past the "spin" process. Pre-programed with 9 mins of spin mode, at the 7th min, machine would blink with life and "7" would flash continuously and I guess you can say the washer decides to 'hang' on me. We are used to this and usually to get round it, we would just switch it off and turn it back on again and manually set it at the program it last died in. It would work majority of the time. Today it wont let up, set on dying at 7, I repeated the spin cycle at least 3 times before I succeeded. I was actually quite worried about my clothes disintegrating in the washer.

Next, bad tummy ache, headed for my favorite bathroom which is also my parent's room. Once done, I felt a kg lighter and reach to flush it all down. Everything swells up and I took a step back alarmed at the rising water. Contents just wouldnt go down and I just created a mini pond in my parents' bowl. Trying to flush again at this point would be disastraous and guarantees evacaution. A flicker of hope when puddle slowly seeps down and I tried flushing again...no chance. This went on a few times and by now I was perspiring. Disgusting is the word of the day for me. I googled "how to clear choked toilet bowl" and read that pouring hot water helps. Sure, I will try anything that doesnt require me to have any contact with the shit.
Kettle of boiling water went in....boy...I was actually cooking that shit which looked crispy and the smell of it...I was convulsing and near fainting at this stage. I had to stop pouring because this time it was a boiling pond rising up.
My mom by now have sounded all alarm bells. It starts with totally not wanting to acknowledge the shit mess: "I dont know...dont tell me" to passing the buck: "you go and ask your father how to clear the shit" then finally helplessness: she passed me a handle taken off a pail. My gosh, stirring shit takes on a whole new meaning for me...even as I type this now, I'm making vomit sounds..but it did work. The moment I stir-fry them, everything just flowed through and the flush cleared remainder of the goo out.

Towards evening, I was home alone, felt hungry and made myself some kueh pie tees and cuppa hot coffee. I sat down in front of my comp surfing the net, munched up some crispy pie tees then suddenly the power went out. It was storming outside and I was in twlight darkness. The circuit kept tripping and I had some difficulty turning it back on and making sure it stayed on. By the time I was done flipping switches, my pie tees were soggy.

Today is the suay-est day indeed

What is She Implying??

These days my appetite is HUGE!! It's freaking me out. Friday after work me and colleagues went to Lagoon for dinner and we ordered: Stingray, satay, oyster omelette, kangkong sotong and chicken wings. After dinner we went to Beach Hut for drinks and played 5-10. I lost and drank up to 4 mugs straight. Got back around 2plus and felt hungry again!! Ordered Macs: Cheeseburger Happy Meal with medium Jasmine Tea and an Apple Pie.

Today after dinner, I had prata craving...told my friend about it exclaiming my surprise at my sudden hunger pangs, she retorted "Dont worry after tonight you wont feel hungry anymore..." Just what is she implying??

Some people think the world of themselves just because they may have more knowledge over others. Maybe they learned things the hard way or they put in alot effort to get to where they are. Now when its time to pass on the knowledge, they think others shouldnt get it that easily. Why should others get the highway when they themselves struggled to get where they are? Is that your mentality? I hope I'm not guilty of such myself.

Tidbits of Workplace

So! A new colleague forgot to order our supply of water and when she did remember, delivery could only take place the next day around noon. Last evening we were rationing our water, of course we still have the packet drinks but I dont really like sugared drinks nowadays.

This morning we were really out of water! No hot beverage on a rainy day and delivery was delayed. When it finally came, the angmoh in our office literally clapped while water-man trolley through with bottles of supply.

Then, not too long ago we had a Japanese colleague who followed her partner here to Singapore. He was relocated to Singapore and she wanted to quit her job to follow him here. But our company offered her a spot in our Singapore office so she could carry on working, servicing Japanese clients just physically out of Japan that's all. She's one lady I can identify with! That evening, she brought the whole pack of sanitary napkins to toilet in a big cloth bag and everyone thought she was done for the day and heading home. So all bid their farewells to her wishing her a good weekend. Moments later, she walked back in and plopped herself at the seat and continued working diligently. Everyone thought there must be something urgent she might have over-looked.

When everyone's about gone home, she walked over and bid me farewell and we made small talk. I asked if there were something urgent which cropped up and she had to return to work again. She leaned forward and quietly said she didnt expect everyone to think she was going home, she meant to just head for the toilet with her napkins and resume work thereafter. She showed me her big clothe bag with whole full pack of pads in it. Alemak...who will bring the whole pack to toilet wan? No wonder everyone thinks she's going home already!!! She say she couldnt be bothered to sneak one to the loo so she just bring the whole bag along. Damn stylo right?

Then few days ago, I bumped into her near the toilet and we made small talk again (hey your suppose to ok, this is called good work ethics) then I saw that her eyes were bloodshot so asked her about it. Her answer damn straight forward: "I am always sleepy at this time of the day". My hero.

Then today she sent a private email out but accidentally included an alias which has the whole Singapore team including Heads of Singapore, Japan and Hongkong in the cc list. That private email was to another colleague. Apparently, an email was sent out announcing my departure (yes, i've resigned) to this alias. And since she just transfered to Singapore office, she wasnt included in the alias so she didnt know about my coming departure till some random chat over lunch. I guess that email was meant to update her but she replied with everyone in it and mentioned its sad news.

So happy, at least got people care about my departure. The rest dont even give much thought. Anyway I think she quite poor thing, she tried to recall the email and I think the secretary told her to be careful because alot of Heads are in the list. She must have felt miserable. I told her its ok and people make boo-boos like these, well, I always do anyways. I can send and recall and send and recall numerous times. So you wouldnt know which email to read...Anyways recalled mails will have blank contents. Reading my mails can be like Lucky-Draw, u click on the wrong one then TOO BAD!! No content shown for this one. Try another...

She reply me saying she always do stupid things like these and people laugh at her...and that she's crying...so poor thing. I also always do stupid things like the most DUH things and wish there's a hole I can crawl to. Not bad for someone this age who's been summoned by government to exchange her ID for a new one. Government needs an update of my photo?

All I hear from her is Bloody this and F* that...

One of my team associate arrived from London office. We met before during our off-site about 2 months ago.
Saw her yesterday borrow money from me liao. Its not much just buay song. She went to buy food then call out to me asking me for money to help her pay. There's no please , no thank you. Hey do you have 20bucks?

Then she wanted to smoke so she went off searching for someone to grab cigarette from. Not before she turned to me and say "stay here, Im gonna get a ciggie" I owe you ar?

Whatsmore it's not like we're friends. She can walk into the training room and treat me like invisible. We are colleagues working in the same department ley, just that she's with London office and Im with Singapore office. Damn unfriendly.

Today send out email asking our team if any of us have extra mobile phone because her phone doesnt work here. Nobody replied her.

I didnt get my money back. There's a breed of them who's all loud , noisy, dont give a hoot about you and then suddenly ask you for money.

And you know how she tries her luck to get rides to church? She asks this dude whether he goes to church. He said he hasnt had the chance to cos he's been real busy, then she say well I'm looking for a ride so let me know when you go. He diam diam...

My mobile bill is $350bucks this month...=( cut-throat...

Beverage Toy

Hillside Mocha Latte Coffee! It's so ingenious, packed in a self heating container
Upon activation, the coffee heats up and you get hot coffee anytime you want.
Always interested in stuff like these, I saw it in the grocery store and bought 2 cans without hesitation


first, you turn the can upside down and pull off metal bottom


Pull down firmly on the button, which releases coloured water into a storage of quicklime
(when mixed with water, chemical reaction starts and heat will be released)


After few seconds, turn the can rightside up and wait for the pink spot to turn white
that's when it's ready. A hot cuppa mocha latte!


But it tasted like shit and when I pour it out there were coagulated particles which I think is milk solids
This freaking thing can warm itself up but cannot ensure that it's fresh lor.
Goodness knows how long its been on the shelves already...
I've got another can....dont know what to do with it.

八宝带



Everybody has a second Home. This is mine.
My mom just walked into my room and commented that my work-station is super messy.
I beg to differ. I call it Home. Cluttered it may be but its a familiar mess and Im comfortable with it.
Know what's the most important item here? That little eye-drop solution.
Without it, I cry literally and kiss my screen when it gets bad.
Actually there's another important item that's missing in the picture...




Tadah!! Axe brand medicated oil! Cures all morning sinus, and boss driven headaches~~

Lemme see, I used to have this to my collection as well...



When its heavy days, I love to stick this right up my nose. Damn ugly I know but 老娘can afford it heheh..but it can be damn disgusting cos the tap's over-flowing and the plug has a tiny hole to let the vapour out, Im not sure if some of my insides drips into that tiny hole...maybe I would know when I feel some swirling holding it >_<"



Since I'm at it, let me find a pic of my lovely Eye Mo eye-drop





Remember my Laosai boss? Refresher: Link1 Link2
When he was still around, one day he came round my table and stopped short at his track and exclaimed with bulging eyes

Cherandy!!!
You use these?? (Pointing to my beloved items)

I nodded to which he made a beeline to his cubicle, came back and with a thud placed his own collection of Nose inhalant, Eye drops and Medicated oil and they were all king sized! Anyways that's besides the point, you know what this means??
I have become a true blue obasan liao~~~~

At 11:50am today I thought my colleague was shaking my chair, I turned around ready to fire a missile but the joker was at her cubicle, next thing on my mind was someone must be thumping on the floor really hard, and I swirled round ready to launch rocket. But nobody, nothing.

Then why on earth am I feeling dizzy like the whole building was moving? Bcos the damn blardy building was really moving! It's Alive!!

Alarmed, I stood up and saw quite alot of heads peering from their partition as well. It just flashed across my mind "Prarie dogs! haha" just like Discovery Channel....the eh simi taiji??

Some clown voiced out maybe some really heavy-assed vehicle drove past and caused the tremors. Finally a mensa genius spurt it could likely be an earthquake!

Everybody was asking aloud "how? wanna get out of office or not" ask already can still stand there looking blur like its the most difficult question of their life. It was nearing lunch anway so I said 'eh lets go la, better get out of office' , then they can still stand around!! You guys waiting for the subtitles or neon flashlights issit!??!

Heck care liao, I just take my pouch and head out. My dept was on the 10th floor, on the way down it almost made all the stops and people were trying to get in. This gave a little edge on how serious it might be.

Down at the ground floor I was greeted by wave of office workers standing around aimlessly. All wear until so smart and sharp but the face damn aimless like chickens without heads lidat. Stand directly under building somemore. Then machiam like gangstars greet each other lidat, I walked into 2 ladies and we stood there exchanged gangstar lingo:

you from which building wan?

samsung

oh samsung~~

you from which building wan??

capital square

oh capital square also shake ar~~

ya

the whole siiiinnnngapore island is shaking lor

aimless people standing around everybody on the phone the Hong Hei Lians from the other building

so we went for lunch and everybody's on mobile phone: call family, bf,broker,maid etc

went back office about 1.5hrs later

around 13:50pm we were seated at our cubicle and wheee here we go again

this time it lasted longer about 8-10seconds? we looked at the window blinds and it was swaying like it was trying to be sexy and the water flask at my table was having a mini tsunami.

I felt sick and walked out. My VP popped up and announced

"I donno about you guys but I think we should evacuate again, it's your own decision"

Bumped into a colleague who was standing by the cargo lift, he heard the lift banging against the elevator shaft, bumpy ride for those in there heheh

This time we took the firemen staircase. The moment we opened the door, we heard a gang of elephants approaching. I remember hearing my colleague say "wah lai liao..." meaning those herd upstairs are making their way down

Times like these those kopitiam uncles are the happiest. Everybody come down sure patronise them mah otherwise do what. We chose table nearest the road so even if the kopitiam cave down can quickly jump out onto the road, then one joker say ya and get run over by a car, stupid comment sibeh salah but damn funny.

Some time later they said we could all head back office when all I wanted was to head back home. No joke man, this roller coaster ride is one where you cant jump off cos your whole world is the coaster. There were news that the millenia office were released to go home which Im so envious of. Another claimed OCBC didnt even allow their workers to evacuate assuring their building is safe, she told my colleague via sms amidst the shaking to remember that she likes lilies...

Where got lidat wan?? You as a manager forbid your employees to even evacuate when the building is swaying, you assure people with what?? So many lives at stake. There's always the "what if" Then you OOPS issit?

Anways early lunch, forced tea-break and a planned birthday celebration, nothing much was done on this day. If there aint casualties I dont mind disco every once in a while man.

Sadly there were casualties over in Sumatra where the quake all started:

http://feeds.bignewsnetwork.com/?sid=232234

Have a good life and times like these please make your own decision. Dont wait for stupid PA announcement or ladder drop from Heaven. That manager who assures you could be the manager that pushes you down the stairs so that he/she can rush to the ground level first. Assure my ass

Revamption

Constellations shifts, Planets align, Lighting strucks, this blog has been given a new look!
Apprehensive at first, worried some settings might go awry or pictures may get lost but fears unfounded. Some tweaking and adjusting...all looked in place.

Signed up for flicker as well, bits of my new zealand trip have been uploaded, but the rate the loading goes it would take days before all's up.

Laosai boss is leaving the bank. He always calls me little jedi, in return I naturally address him as jedi master. When I left and rejoined the bank, I let known to him I'm still around, only that I'm in consumer banking. He said no wonder there's disturbance in the Force. .

It's been 8 months since I left private banking, now I'm finally returning, I hear of his soon departure. Funny but Im affected somehow. Cant say we worked long together but somehow he was able to influence me quite abit. In his way, he was mentoring me. How often do you get a boss that sits down with you, gives pointers on writing powerful emails? He's known to also attend conference calls with his staff, mutes the phone and prep his staff with strategic answers when the other party is being difficult. Knowing what to say and how to say it is a professional skill. He doesnt fight the battle for you, you fight it yourself aided by his guidance. Unfortunately, I dont get this. Most of my calls are fairly easy but there was one call I wished he was around, I got shot down by compliance.

Mornings when he catches me making cuppa coffee, he points accusingly at the cup why are you drinking this? Acid! It's acid! Followed by, I must tell you the acid story...

We have coded term for tea-break session. When it strikes four in the afternoon, you see someone walking up to your desk, you turn and look at him and expect either 1 of 2 things. Utterance of the word Eyebrow. Or him drawing his finger across his eyebrow. You'd know it's time for tea-break with him and his gang. Why eyebrow? It sparked off cos of a malay lady who serves at ah mei kaya toast. She shaved off her eyebrows just to draw it back again real thin and heavily arc-ed. He was clearly amused by that and it became a thing ever since. A funny character, but commanded alot of respect nonetheless. I wish him life's best.

After discount...$6.90

Finally! I found the VCD yesterday at good ole Poh Kim and it was going for 50%! Happy... Wasted no time in tearing off the package and indulged myself in love,drama and death. Part of the reason why I was quite persistent in getting hold of this movie was reading that one of the actresses commited suicide in Feb last year. She died at the age of 25. What a pity right? I thought to myself, she's got everything going for her...career, looks and fame yet she chose to end her life. But guess all these could be the very reason that adds to her depression. Below are some pictures, guess it's quite easy to figure out who's the one.

Evacuation Chart

click on chart to enlarge

QNS: How to determine the hardness and weight??

Of Things Kimchi
Trying to get hold of this korean drama. This is a 2002 production, considering the korean wave here, surprisingly none of the shop staff approached heard of it...



Esther is back but only for the week. She's flying off again Monday morning back to her little Beijing apartment. Bernard's in HongKong, Michelle soon to be Australia, brother in NZ. Gee...picking out vacation spots should be quite a breeze for me.
Today's my first time meeting Tabby and it's really been awhile since I heard someone punctuate their lines with limpeh. I just burst out laughing. Its quite fun hanging out with people lidat for a change and I find the lian in me identifying with her.

Boo!

It's been awhile...how come all my pictures disappeared?

Little Girl in a Big Big World...

Everybody dress to kill at the CBD area, especially Mondays. Power suits, 2-3 inch heels, linkcuffs etc if their branded suits are way more branded than yours, they can kill you.

I learned there are the fast lane and the slow lane on the escalators. Those in a hurry will step right and walk while riding along. If you wish to just ride it out, you have to stand left.

So, on Monday like all people, suffered from the Blues and I commute to work gloomy and I hate it that everyone dressed like they're so uppity with expressions that's far from friendly and they have such intended force in their steps when they walk, dont their feet hurt at all? So back to the escalator, I was running late, cut right and knocked the shoes off some lady in front of me. Her flops went sprawling to the other end, I found myself staring at her naked feet and for a split second I thought 'wah so smartly dressed but eh? bare-feet?? '. Half expecting her whip round giving me loud 'tsk' or killer stare, heard lady 'hehe' to herself while she reached for her shoe. Her 'hehe' did it, already I found it irresistibly funny, her 'hehe' nearly killed me cos I desparately wanted to laugh too! I swear it was the hardest apology I coughed up while holding my chocking urge. It was precisely so funny cos it was like so improper. And suddenly it didnt feel like a awful Monday no more..

My Boss:
- calls us 'boss' instead of our names and he msg us on this messenger thing we have like msn and ask how's our morning/lunch/day etc: 'helo boss, hw's lunch?'
- he's overwhelmed by work and mostly it's bohliao stuff, he forwards the email to us with his comment in big fonts "Lao Sai"
- time to time he'll msg us 'boss hw r u? Im dying...'
- so we go drop by check in on him at his cubicle and he shows us what he has to work on while half-crying and laughing 'wah lao...cherandy...I have to update this, this, this, boring man...'
- some people made mistakes or did stupid unexplainable things, his msg: "Vomit!"

See what?

Hi! I'm her evil twin, she's Gemini remember so that's gotta be another around and yup its me. Brandy. You laughing at my name?You think it's cheesy? Suck my toe. It's a stupid name but it signifies my all too important role in her otherwise mundane life.
Although she pretends I'm not around..as if I put her to shame, each time she gets drunk, who takes it for her? And the woman wakes up the next day going about her usual as if nothing happened.
No she didnt climb up the podium in Devils and make a complete ass of herself, no she didnt beg the waiter at Harry's (?) to 'save' her by dancing with her (which he gladly obliged and was all gentleman about it...woah) cos some scary blok kept harrassing her to dance with him, and no she certainly did not chat up with the janitor telling him how he should wear his redcap while he smiles nervously at her as he cleans up some puke off the floor..It was all ME! And she has the cheek to be ashamed of me! Ingrate!
Sooo except for certain days of the month dependent on some weird cycle or the Moon, OR when she oh-so-unwillingly lands herself in unhealthy environment surrounded by booze and plays victim there, I'm usually not interested in letting myself out. But when I DO come out and grace my presence, I relish every moment of it. So really, ours is a love-hate relationship, something which I find tough to understand.
Anyways, I cant stand it that she kids herself thinking with her new found job, she's either too stressed or busy to blog something down and so tonight it's MY SAY. She not happy she can go suck the other toe.
Let me begin by introducing myself:


She: My acting angel twin


Me: Evil Twin


Just a side note, someone once commented that MY picture looked like some Japanese babe! WoohoOoo! Kawaii Ne~~And she had the audacity to be all cheery and happy about it! As if it's her pic??
The woman shocks me, horrifies me and fascinates me.

Case-study:

1. She was told to go Millenia Tower and obtain her Acess Pass on the 39th floor from a lady working at the CSIS Dept. Apparently she was also informed there should be a Smith and Barney's office around on the same floor.
- She steps into the crowded lift, press '39' and I heard her telling herself she's gonna faint any moment cos everyone around her was smartly donned in business armour suits and she's getting smaller smaller and smaller... *Ding* 29th Storey says the Automated voice and the woman walked out! She looked around for Smith and Barneys, not in sight. She went on along the corridor reading the Dept plates on the walls. No CSIS but she did see a CIS. She hesitates abit and thought oh well, maybe it's the same. The SAME?! And proceeds to dial the relevant extension while she stands outside the obviously wrong door! Nobody answered, annoyed, she marched up to the recep of the floor and asked for the lady she was to meet. 'Oh, CSIS is on the 39th Floor' said the lady. You should have seen the look on my twin's face. Doh!

2. Every Friday evening, she supposedly started having Cell Group meetings on the 16th floor at this condo 'Rafflesia' in Bishan. She's both driven / being driven there couple of times and last night being late, overworked and very hungry, she rushed down in a cab. Uncle cabby asked her before he turned in 'This one ar?' She looked up abit 'ya' and continues playing with her mobile. Now, at the gantry, you usually just tell the guard the magic words '16-0-1' and you'll be let through, unmolested. Last night, the guard gave her a funny look and she thought he was being rude. He then shoves a book to her face and requested she signs in. The nerve! She complains to the cabby uncle that they started a new system and that before, there wasnt any need to sign any stuff at all and laments and sighs while she scribbled on it. After being let through, she thought the driveway was a little strange and that he has to drive a little longer than usual before arriving at the dropoff point. No worries. She paid and proceeded to the lift lobby. Strange, this time they built doors to the lobby, new system of having to sign in and now there are lobby doors! Note, by this time, I was kinda frowning and gave her a little kick, but the bugger ignored me. Oh well. She goes into the lift with an angmoh couple, the man was carrying a big pot of plant with little oranges on it. Chinese New Year mood infectious! Cool! Then she looks at the buttons....no button with '16' on it to press. The highest floor was '10'. Well, she has to press something right? She hit the highest floor while she was all confused inside. Angmoh couple exit at their floor and she frantically hit the Ground button while she thinks to herself where the other 6 storeys gone to. Down at the ground level, she walks around, and I cant believe this but she actually thinks maybe this is the wrong block, maybe another block has 16 storeys to it and that's the right one. The colours of the condos seemed right and even the swimming pool seemed right so it's gotta be another block. She called her cell group friend to check on the correct tower and was told it's tower 1, she saw tower A and thinks that's the one. 'A' and '1' is the first of everything. So it must be it. She walks and stopped short, wait, this block looks short, it's the same one I came out from, looks around, all the blocks are of the same height! It's all 10 storeys! She walks to the gantry and checks with the guard. Wrong place. Does it surprise you? Did it surprise me? There's more. The guard told her 'Rafflesia' is further up the road. She attempts to walk uphill, feeling stupidier with each step she took in her filmsy heels. Upon nearing the compound, she looks at the colour of the condos and thinks, 'This is not it, the colours are wrong and the tennis court is not above ground level, not the place at all'. Then she saw the signboard
Rafflesia
Stupid or not, I ask you?
You want somemore? Ok just abit more..

3. She was bathing just now right and began the routine of washing her hair first. Using only Dove hair products, after shampooing she went on to the conditioner and rinsed it off. So far so good. Next is the body right? She reached and squeezed out a fat glob of Dove shampoo, again.

She thinks it's not too bad since, hey there's no one else in the bathroom, she can remedy the situation by twisting off the shampoo cap and scrapping the glob back into the bottle.
Think again, she forgot I was there.

Who's ashamed of who now?

~Brandy (shaddup)~

Welcome to channelcherandyasia: According to statistics, Unemployment has declined by 0.00001% today...

Bcos I've juz been hired! Today is like smack everything happening in yer face one after another. Agent called in morning informed me of an interview set for afternoon. Went for it and couple of hours later, she said I'm selected!! WooHOoo!! Can you feel my happiness?? Can you??

Gosh all of a sudden I feel I've not played enough...I know this is a stupid thought but cant they have me start work next Monday instead of tomorrow? Im not ready to wake up 7am and jostle with the peak hr crowd. I'll most probably have insomnia tonight and look like shit tomorrow. Looking at my dull-wit face, they'll prob think they've selected the wrong candidate and let me go the next day! Smack and Wham again! They better not cos this is the very same bank that rejected me the other time. I dont care if it's a different office this time, if they let me down again I'll take it very personal and burn them down. Not when I sent mass SMS to all my friends "tis is to formally announce ur dearez fren cheran here has been employed! Tnks for all de encouragements! Muacky muackz"

Alrite I'm heading out for a grand celebration, fireworks and all.
Kiss porridge nightmare goodbye!

Jobless and Chest-less...

My agent confirmed my worstest fear, din get the stupid job as expected. Hate it when I always get it right and it's always the bad bad ones. I'm peeved. I've had it with this dumb bank, one day when I become rich and powerful, I'll employ someone to open and close an account worth millions every alternate day and I want my withdrawal all in coins.

So she's gonna try pimp me to another bank, we'll see how that goes. To speed things up, I went down to Adecco and got myself another personnel consultant. Hmm I like the word agent better, makes me feel like a celebrity whenever friends ask for updates "..my agent will contact me should there be further developments". This hongkie-twang agent tells me she has an open position currently, working hours are from 4pm - 1am...this explains why it's still left open. Well, I cant be choosy right? Anything nice and rosy wld have been snatched up, even if it aint, it wldnt be for me. So if they're willing to train someone like me who's got no relevant experience wadsoever, I'm happy. Just take me!

Other news - met up with 2 of my closest friends for lunch and got scolded for not eating enough cos to them I lost weight and my breasts. I was never a large or even close to a moderate. 'Ya but at least u had some, now it's like u dont even have any'.

I wanna hit things.

I'm on emotional crutches..

Well I've seen better days. Maybe its my hormones, I'm in the midst of my cycle. Maybe it's the damning drilling that roused me from my slumber at unearthly hours. Maybe its the awful interview I went through yesterday.

When I received call from my agent that I was shortlisted for the interview, nothing could describe my happiness! At least I have a chance! When I was informed of the venue and the interviewer, they were strangely familar...Didnt take long to realise I've been to the exact place, had the interview with the exact person couple of months back! It was through a friend that had me hooked up to that interview and now my agent's sending me to the same interview again.
What kinda chance do I have now? Disappointed, I decided to turn up anyway...I mean who knows?

Apparently, the lady who was due to interview me made that realisation too and checked with my friend way before our scheduled time. She told my friend since she's interviewed me before she cant interview me again, so I was actually interviewed by another lady. My friend found out and relate to me that I wasnt shortlisted the first time bcos I didnt look like I would stay on with the supposedly boring job and that the lady felt I'm more apt for sales position. Come on! I would have know better and go immerse myself with sales application instead of trying out for this than right? Obviously I would know what I want and would be commited to stick on with the 'boring' job. How could they just presume and its not even a correct presumption at that!

I turn up hopping I could change her mind, only to discover another lady was interviewing me and the interview wasnt good. It was superficial, nothing much was asked about me and it felt like she was just going through for the sake of it. I was in and out in about 10mins.

Now you know why I feel terrible?

But then again my friends were real supportive and I'm so grateful for that, for them.

supportive fren: no worries la..take your time

me: if take somemore time I have to eat porridge liao la

supportive fren: porridge not bad wad...quite nice to eat leh

me: ...can you try harder to make pple feel better instead of describing the porridge

supportive fren: hehe..ok la it's that stupid company's loss..

and she even went further to check up my horoscope (gemini), cut and paste the entire chunk detailing how the year 2005 would be a good year for me.

I really appreciated that. Another bore with my whinning and lamenting into the phone about how ill-fated I am, how the sun refuse to shine for me no more..you know..making my problem sound bigger than it really is.

Below are more sporadic utterance from various friends:
fren 1: cheran, we go for holiday ok? I lend you the money first, no interest. You can pay me back when u find your job.

fren 2: you still have money in your bank not? If not can tell me..

fren 3: I pray for you ok?

They dont know how much I love them. It's not the money, Im definitely very good with my finance management. It's just that sometimes they really make me feel very loved...think I should go and cry abit..

Santa would most prob trip and fall visiting a particular unit in Ah Hood Road..

Christmas is approaching and this year i would really like a Christmas tree but my mom is right, our house is always in such a big mess there wouldnt be a clean spot for the tree.
The last tree we had since pri school had lost all its 'leaves'. It was a real plasticky tree that had leaves slotted into branches slotted into the tree. Few years back I tried to set it up but it looked so ugly cos we lost most of the leaves and if they were still around, most were pressed out of shape. And I bet like most of you, come Chinese New Year, the tree would still be glittering with neon bulbs and laden with cotton snow.
So I looked around and felt books have got to be the most common in my HDB flat. We have a total of 7 bookshelves overflowing with it. The Genre is wide: "Chen Style Taichichuan", "The Complete Medicinal Herbal", "How to Get Extraordinary Results from Ordinary People", "Mastering WordPerfect 5" (do people still use WordPerfect these days?), "New Syllabus Mathematics (latest edition, revised edition, complete edition etc)". We've long ran out of space for bookshelves, hence piles of it are stacked neatly at some corner. Occasionally pile would topple over and stuff at the bottom rises up to the top. Upon entering flat for the first time, friends would almost always display the by now classic expression. Imagine dropped jaws and a 'wah...' followed by long pause. One thing's for sure, our unit would burn the brightest if there's ever a fire hazard.

Random clutter-check:
1. two refrigerators

2. four TVs (1 not working but not disposed of bcos 'it can be fixed')

3. three VCR recorders (1 not working but same as above)

4. four vacumn cleaners (1 not working but same as above)

5. three iron (1 short circuited when my mom last used it, not disposed just cos its simply not disposed of)

6. twelve phone sets!! (4 connected, the rest is spoilt in some ways. Not disposed cos I'm beginning to suspect we have a fetish for these instruments.)

7. five desktops (3 in use while the rest is being kept as antiques)

8. four laptops (2 in use while the rest were 2nd-hand bought at very good rates but with no planned purpose of use)

And I hafen got to the kitchen...